I am at a complete loss for words, and in such shock. I only know that it's going to be a painful road of recovery.
I wish I could have moved to Arcata sooner, moved in together like we always talked about, and pulled him out of that shit-hole of a city that was clearly related to him ending his life.
I plead with you, if you are considering suicide, it is not the answer. People love you more than you know, and are only a phone call, a message, or an email away that want to talk to you and help you get through tough times. If you need someone to talk to, do not hesitate to contact me, I would be happy to try and help.
Before a surf in norcal, doing what he loved most.